Welcome to India!

So I am back to India! I studied in Chicago for 2 yrs and learnt and unlearnt lot of things...and it seems I have to do it all over again..Arggghh!! Learn to be rude and mean and nasty and discourteous. Learn to push people around in the elevators to make my way through. Learn to live with the fact that everyone KNOWS how I should live MY life and consider it their bloody right to inform me every opportunity they get!!!!

u me aur hum

sometimes i wonder, even if u and me do come together, does hum ever exist? for "u" filling moments with fun is a bigger priority than being in the moment. for "me" having my space is more important..."hum" becomes a mixture of frustrated activities neither me nor u want to indulge in whole heartedly..hence begins the blame game..but wot happens when we do let go and let "u" or "me" get what they want individually by bowing out of each other's plans...does it solve everything? do "u" or "me" feel betrayed at what they now call being left out?

satc

expectations..

tum adhura sa ek khwab ho..

Scooped..

tears..

Touch base..

How does one survive different weathers a relationship goes through???

The springy summer of endless conversations when everything is so glossy that you don't want to see through..high phone bills are laughed at and your beloved is the holy grail of your life. You must have him/her at any cost in your thoughts, in your life all the time, and everyone else is an insensitive intruder..Oh those days! Heady!

But why is the follow-up of those days not so pleasant?
Why do long conversations become touch-base phone calls, reminding everytime of the running pulse or a deadline or an important meeting? Where does all the passion, the yearnings, the sleep-less nights go? Is it comfort level or complacence?


And when this happens, should we head onto the Fall/winters or try to invoke a journey into another springy summer...You need two to tango of-course..

Pursuit of Happiness..

where does one start looking when trying to find happiness? Offlate I tried to look around for mine..in my spouse, friends and so on..Did I find it? well sometimes yes and mostly..no..

Me thinks it is something to be looked for within your own self and has a lot to do with being honest to yourself more than anything else...Heck! I used to know this before too and followed it for sometime before giving power on myself to others to hurt me..I was doing fine in my cocoon. I was alone but not lonely. And in a wierd way I was peaceful..

Research

Well, how hard can it be to face failures on a daily basis? To be honest- its so hard for me that with each failed experiment my self confidence dies a little bit everytime....i dont know if i m over-ambitious or plain unlucky. And how long can you keep telling the same story of stuff not happenning at work, when people ask about the sullen look..It gets harder with no support system as well.

Weddings-overrated??

Bachpan se, I have heard that getting married is the next best aim to have in life, apart from making your career of-course. I am married now, by my own choice and longing, but I fail to see the purpose it serves and am a trifle dis-illusioned.

The romance takes a back-seat starting...errr..DAY 1. Suddenly there is a need to show one-upmanship, with arguments as silly as -mere rishteydaar tumhare walon se achche hain..(the people we haven't met in ages!). You have time for everything else but for your spouse.. To cut a long and oft repeated bolly-woodish story short- THINGS CHANGE BIG-TIME!

Sometimes I feel that all I needed was a room-mate, who would be there to hang-out and chill sometimes, and otherwise I would have my space and my lIFE-uncomplicated by emotions tht are hard to handle.

surprize parties!

Somehow the desi junta in USA has caught up up big time on "surprize parties"...the usual circus of the spouse taking the partner to the mall on the b'day eve...friends gather up in the house meanwhile and get things ready...and lo and behold- SURPRIZE!!!

i wonder though, how truly suprprized the b'day gal/boy is though...coz its usually a routine, everyone does it every single time...so much so that one of my friends actually bullied her hubby to throw a "surprize party" on her b'day to show his true love! Poor guy! Imagine keeping it a surprize when the wifey supervised it. :)

I am glad my spouse is out of it..Heck, he has a hard time remembering my b'day, and is usually the last person to wish..No surprizes there! Typical! :)