Dude if you wanna spend it, you need to earn it!You hear it all your teenage life from your harried parents and take it in your stride, but it hurts a little when it comes from your spouse. Though I have been big on spending all my life, earning the dough doesn't come easy to me. I wonder why? Am I not a go-getter enough, or am I complacent with the spouse doing the needful. The grad fellowship in the US for 2 years was the only high point in my otherwise sorry monetary life.Even though it was not a big amount in itself, it did pay for my high-end laptop, camera etc in the first couple of months. And I left it all to come to the uncertainties of life in India during the recession. With double MS degrees, I hoped landing a great job would just be a matter of time, but I am still waiting for that elusive offer.
Sometimes I wonder what if I had stayed back and let life take its own course. I would be earning decent moolah and looking forward to advancements in my career. However I am not so sure about my personal life. A long distance relationship was just not our thing is what we decided and after a long struggle of the spouse trying to make it there, I decided to pack my bags and move back. All good. But really?
When money was not a problem, lack of proximity was and now it is just the opposite. The either/ors in life have me flummoxed. Just for once can I not have it all and sleep in peace.
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